Okay, quick update...

I really don't want to go back to school, but hey, not too terribly bad. I just keep telling myself "7 more days, just 7 more days." And it's only 7 because bwaha, no exams! Finally and up side to this god awful senior year. New Year's Eve was fun. I went to Ben's party. Nate was invited too, so I took him. He spent the night there. (*sniffles* all the guys were allowed, i wasn't) I was a good time. We played a bunch of Halo 2 and watched Bourne Identity, which was kinda confusing. I can't wait to go back to Taekwondo tomorrow. I feel like I've been a bit too mellow of late. Mellow and depressed are too close together. I don't like it becuase I'm scared I might slip. But in a way I guess mellow is good. It's nice and calm. Sometimes I think I'm too violent. Ben teases me about being abusive to him, and even though I know he's just teasing, it kinda bothers me sometimes. So I've vowed to myself not to be at all violent or mean anymore. I guess that can be considered to be my new year's resolution. And another: to be more confident in myself, and what I can do; to stop being irrationally afraid, I at least should try and find a reason for my fears methinks; to try and not get down so easily; to not take things so personally; to not think everything is my fault all the time; ; to just relax and realize that sometimes it's okay to just let go. I think I may already be making some headway on that one. Heck, I haven't finished reading The Poisenwood Bible yet. That supposed to be done by tomorrow. I still have like 250 or so pages left. I like it, it's just long. Worse comes to worse for the paper I can just use spark notes for the parts I haven't finished. See, already getting to work an that last resolution. And tonight hanging out with Ben I think I made some headway on the first. Oh, I watched Jackass with him tonight. It was hilarious. And we watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, I watched it for the second time. It's good. And it made more sense the second time too. Okay, so maybe this wasn't quite such a quick update, I guess I kinda went off on a tangent. Oh well, Ciao!