"I Wish You Well"

[skylark913]

i guess i've reached another stage of acceptance. at the moment (i don't know if it'll stick around, although i hope it will) i've accepted that jeff longer wants to be a large part of my life. i've accepted that he's with jess because she's better for him than i ever could be, and if i don't wish them the best, well, i at least don't wish them ill. i've accepted that i'll stay away until i'm welcome again. there's no point in continueing to push when i'm not wanted. and although i won't say i've forgiven jeff for everything he said and did, i've at least forgiven more of it. for the most part i just hope he gets help and eventually realizes that he has a choice in everything, especially the direction he wants his life to go. i still haven't decided about MTI, but at the moment i'm leaning against. if i do decide against, i'd just need to find alternate times to see people, and go back to playing by myself. i'm back to the sad tears, not the angry ones. i'm at that point where i have nothing more to gain by continueing to grieve and want and wish and hope. so, i'm gone until i'm wanted again, and if that never happens, well, then it never happens. i've been told time and again that friends who aren't willing ot spend time with you and friends who aren't willing to fight for you til the bitter end, aren't true friends anyways. i've been told that true friends always have forgiveness in their heart, and will always welcome you home. So home is where I went when I had no where left to go. It's times like that, we realize the true value of people and how much they actually care.

"I Wish You Well"

I wish you well
Couldn't you tell
After all these years
I wish you well
And life in a world
That you're dreaming of
I wish you well
I wish you love, oh
I wish myself
All of the above
What made me think
That I could survive
All the wear and tear?
It's not my thing
To stand here and pose
For some William Tell
I wish you well
I wish you love, oh
I wish myself
All of the above

If there was a better time
I could not find it
It's mine not yours
And yours not mine
And we couldn't hide it
Don't take me on
A ride with you
It's a roller coaster
The only time I look at you
Is on a rock and roll poster
I wish you well

Where are you now?
Couldn't you see through
The sweat and tears?
I took my bow
While you confirmed
All my saddest fears
I wish you well
I wish you love, oh
I wish myself
The world I dream of
I wish you well
I wish you love, oh
I wish myself
All of the above
All of the above
All of the above
All of the above

Comments

[gothicsquish.livejournal.com]

Hope you'll still play at the gallery though?
hugs

[skylark913.livejournal.com]

i'd like to say i will. i'll at least come.

[gothicsquish.livejournal.com]

=(

don't let this decide where you'll go and what you'll do... it makes jeff have to much control over you... stay strong...

[swaggersaltydog.livejournal.com]

Walking away from a damaging situation is not allowing the other party control, its taking control back for yourself and making decisions that need to be made, that is, to not be around people that cause you pain.

[gothicsquish.livejournal.com]

But stoping the activities you enjoy should not be in the plan. I've been there before. Especially if she's inviting people to do things, and then doesn't go because they show up. Thats not walking away, thats being forced out.

Next time feel free to tell Skylark your advice directly, instead of starting a bickering thing with me. There is no reason for it, and doesn't help her at all.