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[skylark913]

so, i'm sick. and when i'm sick i get depressed. so i'm very down right now. i moved up to german 201, and got five credit hours today, but i'm kinda scared that that makes my course load to heavy. the whole class is taught in german. i hope i can manage it. i came home from class today and cried. i don''t really know why. just depressed and scared and worried. i wish i could talk to someone. i called home and talked to mom and dad for a while, but i didn't let them know i was crying, because then i would ahve just cried harder. and i feel like shit. i just want ot die i feel so bad. my fever finally went away today, but i'm so stuffed up and i can't breathe. we went out for floor dinner tonight, that was alright. then i went to the renaissance guild meeting with isaac. that was good because then i didn't have to walk back by myself. and it was alright. i signed up for the guild and the sub guilds of music, song, and dance. i guess i'm excited about that. well, as excited as i am about anything right now. i feel so overwhelmed because i have thee days worth of german to make up since i missed those days and just had my first class today. and tomorrow i have a quizi calc that i'm really worried about. i don't feel like i know how to do any of it. last night the roomies and i were talking about boys and relationships and past relationships. so that just added to the depression. ben did come to see me yesterday, which was really good. i needed that, otherwise i can't even imagine what i'd be like right now. prolly halfway home by hitchihiking. that's how i'm feeling right now. i just want to go home and sleep forever. and cry. i feel like that would feel so good. i hate being sick and depressed. ciao...

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[singingwren.livejournal.com]

Go to Wilce Health Care. It's free for students if you have Wilce insurance, but otherwise, I still don't think it's too bad. They are extremely helpful there. They will totally fix you up.

Remember, we all have our moments of homesickness now and then, but the definition of "home" as you know it is soon going to change. This is your home now too, honey.