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so, i'm sick. and when i'm sick i get depressed. so i'm very down right now. i moved up to german 201, and got five credit hours today, but i'm kinda scared that that makes my course load to heavy. the whole class is taught in german. i hope i can manage it. i came home from class today and cried. i don''t really know why. just depressed and scared and worried. i wish i could talk to someone. i called home and talked to mom and dad for a while, but i didn't let them know i was crying, because then i would ahve just cried harder. and i feel like shit. i just want ot die i feel so bad. my fever finally went away today, but i'm so stuffed up and i can't breathe. we went out for floor dinner tonight, that was alright. then i went to the renaissance guild meeting with isaac. that was good because then i didn't have to walk back by myself. and it was alright. i signed up for the guild and the sub guilds of music, song, and dance. i guess i'm excited about that. well, as excited as i am about anything right now. i feel so overwhelmed because i have thee days worth of german to make up since i missed those days and just had my first class today. and tomorrow i have a quizi calc that i'm really worried about. i don't feel like i know how to do any of it. last night the roomies and i were talking about boys and relationships and past relationships. so that just added to the depression. ben did come to see me yesterday, which was really good. i needed that, otherwise i can't even imagine what i'd be like right now. prolly halfway home by hitchihiking. that's how i'm feeling right now. i just want to go home and sleep forever. and cry. i feel like that would feel so good. i hate being sick and depressed. ciao...